I am so sorry and full of compassion for you. I hear the deep pain in your posts. Pain is such an ever present force in life. The pain of childbirth, the pain of illness, the pain of death, the pain of betrayal, and on and on and on. We have the capacity to hurt each other in so many ways.
Be good to yourself. Remember this is not about you, do not take it personally. Your old marriage is dead, now what are you doing to do about it? How can you save yourself? You have little girls right? They are looking to you and what you show them will impact them for the rest of their lives.
Show them how a real man accepts challenges. Show them how a real man is supposed to treat women, especially wives. They will hold this model for their marriages to come.
You can do this. You have the support of many on this board.
