Keep it up tdkmme your moving forward into the here and now.
You stated the fear of detaching from her so far and that you won't find your way back. The past is gone, it is only a thought. You are not the same person as you were back then. You are this man with these experiences. Live here as you are, accept it. Try to put the hurt down, grow and let the love flourish. The future you seek cannot be reached from the past.
