I like to tell myself that I did this for me. I spent nearly a month reflecting on it. Very much of the mindset that any drastic changes that I make to this situation need to be given ample consideration.
As far as the tests. They worry me. I like to believe I am strong-willed and with most people, they have no sway over me. She does though. She knows exactly what to say and how to say it in order to get me to start listening. It will be a challenge for me to remain firm on this, but I can't have her in my life if she is okay with OM being in hers.
Live for today and see what tomorrow brings I guess.
Thanks again, Cali.
I can relate ... all we can do is look in the mirror and as we see that person look back realize he did all he can, he is a solid dude, and did the best with the hand he was dealt.
As far as the tests ... yeah .. totally get that and heck I will do one better. After 20+ years not only do they know the buttons, they have the locations of all the secret passages ... and with mine, she knew even when I did not say anything, like she was tapped into my brain and could tell when I was pulling away and she would slowly reel me in without me realizing it. We were connected on THAT kind of level that made detaching so hard for me.
In time, I changed those buttons, locked the secret passages, and ... yeah .. I wore tinfoil on my head to keep her and the government out.
Just remember, its not a sprint .. its a marathon, stay hydrated ... I read somewhere "I may quit, I may just give this all up .... but not today"
