Is it normal to have days where you really don't care what the W does or doesn't do. This afternoon I started thinking of her in a negative way. I was imagining myself with someone who accepts me for who I am and who appreciates the man I am. I have no one in mind, but I have been carrying the guilt of this being all my fault that somehow I have her pictured as some kind of perfect person.
At the moment I'm feeling like maybe I'm better without her. I'm have not been the husband I should have been but she has not been the W she should have been.
I just don't care right now. I'll probably feel different tomorrow. But right now I don't want to even see her face.
That's perfectly normal and part of the roller coaster. It probably feels like a relief for a change, compared to the feelings of hurt, despair and loneliness. I actually appreciate getting angry sometimes. Unfortunately, it won't last and by tomorrow, or maybe even a few hours from now, you'll prob be back to the usual. Just ride it out, and enjoy whatever measure of temporary relief you might feel.
Me 47 W 42 T 24 yrs M 18 yrs W living with OM BD1: 3/7/2015 (A with OM#1) BD2: 4/11/2015 (A with OM#2, W moves out) WW filed for D, papers received 9/18/2015. Meeting to determine child custody 9/29/2015.
