have I been making mistakes too long part3

[tkdmme]

Is it normal to have days where you really don't care what the W does or doesn't do. This afternoon I started thinking of her in a negative way. I was imagining myself with someone who accepts me for who I am and who appreciates the man I am. I have no one in mind, but I have been carrying the guilt of this being all my fault that somehow I have her pictured as some kind of perfect person.

At the moment I'm feeling like maybe I'm better without her. I'm have not been the husband I should have been but she has not been the W she should have been.

I just don't care right now. I'll probably feel different tomorrow. But right now I don't want to even see her face.