My lizard and her tunnel ...

[late30s]

I feel like this is the right direction for me, it is difficult not to reach out to her. This feels like the death knell for my marriage.

Some good things about this.

I no longer have to be around her and fake anything. That was becoming too painful for me.

The pain has already subsided quite a bit from last night. I expect more improvement.

No longer in limbo. As of right now I am moving forward.

When we spoke last she told me that she has never stopped loving me, that she still misses me terribly and she needs to take some time to find herself.

She also told me that she didn't want to get my hopes but she feels like this is right road to recovery for us.

Those last two statement from her surprised me and they were nice to hear, but I don't know how much, if any, I believe of them.

I'd appreciate some input -- some support. It's rough today.