My emotions are everywhere today. I think I am back to mourning. I have such sadness over me today. I've been crying a little. I am a mess like I was weeks ago.
I think seeing him today had a part in doing that. I went to his work to get the money order he had for our daughter. I was there briefly just to get that. He was really nervous and shaking but didn't speak to me.
I am trying so hard to focus on me and take the focus off him but it's such a struggle. I am really having a hard time doing that. I don't think I am going to progress much because I just seem to keep going in reverse. I am fine for a few days, then back to the sad emotions.
