Difrent's Detachment - Attempts at It, Anyway

[DifRent]

Had a great time with the family - all my siblings and in-laws and nieces and nephews were there. The only two people missing were my older son, who had to work, and my W - who said she couldn't come because she had to work, as if there weren't a dozen other reasons she was choosing not to come. I posted a video on FB and my mom commented, tagging them both, saying they were greatly missed.

I know my W is convinced that her current superficial life is better than what we ever had, but I'm sure she saw the real love and the warmth she was missing out on, and some part of that had to touch her somewhere she can't acknowledge or won't admit. I only thought about that after the fact, though. It really was a good day where she didn't cross my mind much, though I did think of her often on the drive home, and how much I miss what we used to have.

I got home late this morning to find her car in the driveway, and she was still in it, on the phone. I walked in past her to the bedroom, she came in and went up to the office. She called for me at one point and I didn't answer, then she got on the phone. I decided to leave and come work at the cafe down the street, just wasn't in the mood for either a superficially friendly chat with the same old lame old questions she always asks, or for her to tell me how awesomely busy she is with her business that I all but got off the ground for her, or for her to try and goad me into a confrontation about how I'm just not right for her.

I wish I knew when she was leaving. I'd like to work from my home this afternoon.