have I been making mistakes too long part3

[tkdmme]

dwh,

She does not want to feel differently. She thinks it would be "giving in". She said a few months back that she is not going to force herself to have feelings for me again. Everyday is a trial.

On the bright side, I am getting better at focusing on my work. Also, I have regained my appetite. This is probably a bad thing because im actually down to my ideal weight.

This whole thing has turned my world upside down. I have always been a worrier and now I have really got something to worry about. My mind never leaves the situation totally although that is getting better too. Playing golf and getting out of the house is helping but I cant help but feel that im not doing something at home that she needs me to do.

I know that getting out helps me but I want to continue to work I have been doing on the house. I guess I need to find a healthy balance. Right now I think the best if for me to stay out as much as I can. This would limit our interactions and thus result in less tension at home. Any thoughts on how to balance GAL and life as a father. I have been including the kids in much of the GAL as I can.

I want to play golf today after work but im afraid she will see it as being an absent father. Lets be honest, I don't think she sees me as anything at the moment anyway. I probablp should just stay out of the house as much as I can.