Need advice for a WW who left Part 3

[dwh15]

Sort of feeling bummed today. Was busy all weekend and mostly kept my mind off WW, but back at home today with not much to do other than housework. I miss her like crazy. Sometimes I wish I could just be the friend that she wants, but I know it wouldn't be healthy for me. I'm still not detached enough, and she would use it to her advantage. Plus, I feel it sends her the wrong message that I am OK with just being friends. I want her to see me as a husband, not a gay boyfriend.

Maybe somewhere down the road, say another 2-3 years and everyone has fully moved on, I could be that friend. Of course by then, I may not even want that. Still hard to imagine that this is how it's going to be the rest of my life. Seeing my W for a couple of minutes while exchanging kids, or having a 2 minute convo once or twice a week. This is the woman I imagined growing old with. It's still so hard to cope sometimes. But I keep moving on, trusting that things will get better.