Day to day issues we can talk. We can talk about the kids, work, what we need from grocery store, etc. without issue. She can not talk to me about what she is feeling. She has yet to express what it is that makes her unhapoy. She has said she does not love me, is not attracted to me, does not feel intimate towards me, she said she feels detached. But, she said she can't pinpoint when and why. She is not sure how long she has felt this way. She has bottled up her feelings and they have accumulated over the years. I asked her to forgive me. I asked her to tell me when I say or do something she doesn't like. I do have a younger brother and remember tolerating him. Good analogy! Up until last night, we were sleeping in the same bed. She used to cuddle with me, now she faces the opposite direction. If I touch her, I feel her withdraw. Before last month, I would sleep heavy and never wake up. Now, I can hardly fall asleep and wake frequently. I noticed when I wake, she is not sleeping deep either. She can't sleep well when I'm not sleeping well. She told me it now annoys her to sleep with me because my bad sleep is affecting hers. It is just awkward now for both of us. I am at work and she is at home with kids now. I work days and she works (3) 12 hour overnight shifts as a rn. One day out of the week, I stay out of town. So, we are only sleeping together 3 days out of the week. I now see that our schedules are not helping. Maybe the space will help? I can tell she is anxious around me. I feel like she doesn't want me around. She does not engage me like she used to. She is a different person.
