have I been making mistakes too long part3

[tkdmme]

My wife has always drank. It runs in her family. She is an alcoholic in denial. So, she may drink to help depression but she has drinks even when things are good.

I have been more active with the kids and we are building a better relationship than we have ever had. My W has said to me that she sees the changes that I am making and she is happy for the kids, but it doesn't change the way she feels about me.

I am not sure but her reaction to seeing me with the kids. I think she likes the fact that I am becoming a better father.

We are living the same chapter. This is by far the hardest thing I have ever had to deal with. I hate it so bad and want it to be over. I don't want to detach but I know that it will be my only hope. She seems happy as long as I don't try to talk to her about the M. She reminded me this weekend that she has no intentions on having a future with me. It takes my breath every time I hear her say something like that. I feel myself getting farther from her and it scares me. Im worried that by the time I have detached totally, I will not want the M either.