Sandi - I am so confused right now, that I believe I need to just keep my mouth shut for a day or two. I forced her hand last night and suggested she leave if she isn't gappy, doesn't want to try to make things better, doesn't love me. I told her to go live with her mom or one if her girlfriends. She thought I should be the one to leave. I told her I am not the one searching for happiness. I told her leave and go find it. I stated previously that I thought she was pushing my buttons, trying her hardest to hurt me, and that she was trying to get me to blow up. She was successful. I knew better. I guess the positives from this are that my gut feeling was right. I am sick to my stomach because I know she truly doesn't love me and wants to leave. I think she is building up power within herself, from her friends and family, to leave to be "happy". I believe the time and space I am giving her is time and space for her to develop a exit plan. She has shown no signs of wanting us to work. I am so lost. I don't want a D. I love my W.
