Ok, I got it. You are right. and you are also right about the booze. I am starting over today in trying sobriety. I have never been a heavy drinker but through this I have been turning to it to numb the pain. If I can get completely sober it would send an incredible message to everyone around me. I know this this is true. I can do it. I know this because I have done it before. I just have to stay away from it. All of my friends who know what im going through try to take me out the bars. I haven't done anything stupid yet like cheating or drunk driving, but a I always wake up depressed.
M:39 W:40 S:10 S:7 D:12 BD:3/5/15 Separate BR:3/5/15 W moved out with kids 1/3/16
