I believe in my heart that our M could be the greatest place for us both to heal old wounds, and live out our lives with a partner that is seeking the same type of life.
Been thinking a lot about this kind of thing lately. Why can't it be so easy as saying "I understand your needs now and I have the tools to meet them. All I need is one more chance and we can do this together."
Then I thought about it like this. IF I have a 10 AM flight, I'll think I have plenty of time. I'll sleep in, shower, get breakfast, but maybe there's traffic, and I can find a spot and the security line's long, and I show up at 10 and the flight is gone. I can't just say to the gate agent "I understand I should have been earlier, let's try it again." All there is to do is make the best of it and learn for next time.