Oh PP. I'm literally laughing and crying at the same time. I totally get the spiritual malarkey. I love my dogs and they are incredibly special to me....but spiritual? NO. I started crying at your description of how it meant nothing, but another instance to be the lighthouse. It's like my H making me my favorite meal the other night. It was sweet, but it meant nothing as I know he's still thinking divorce.
Have a peaceful night and know you are in my prayers.
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M 46 / H 43 T 24/M 18 S 4 11/6/2014 ILYBNILWY 1/16/2015 Living in separate bedroom 1/8/2016 H moved out