That is a very good point...I understand I should do whatever for the sake of myself and kids. To be very honest, I am anxious to see him even for 5 min, though he wouldn't talk or look at me. I know that sounds pathetic. I am using all my will power not to follow him around the house or talk to him though. So if I want S? No I don't. But I feel like some boundaries need to be set... The thing is, I am so so scared and hurt right now, I am so impatient I guess. It's like I'm in a terrible nightmare I can't wake up from. I still can't comprehend this is real, I haven't even cried that much actually. For the sake of kids, I think he could take care of them, but I need to set some boundaries like no txting or calling OW in our marital home etc. I just think kids deserve better than that. Also if he is going to stay out all night anyways, I feel like he shouldn't come home just to take a shower or sleep for an hour or two. But then again, like Cherry's case, some people stay in the same house all through A. I know it's up to me, but it is a difficult question. OW is not married. I think she is like 23 or 24( H is 35) I don't think she is in another R either but I'm not sure.
Today I took the kids to the mall to pick up some stuff for the wedding and we had nice lunch though I could not eat much. It was almost always 4 of us when we go out, so this is new to me. I count this my baby step for a progress. I am a foreigner here and I have no family here( only In-laws) so that makes help with kids from someone a little difficult too.
Thank you so much for the insight. It really helps me to talk to someone since I have not told anyone about this yet. I will actually talk to DB coach tomorrow, so I will let you know how he thinks about the situation too.
