Need advice for a WW who left Part 3

[dwh15]

Went to church this morning. The message was powerful and really spoke to my personal situation. I won't go into details but the theme was God's dominion and how he has a plan, and everything always works to his will. Even sinful, bad, painful things are used to bring us closer to God, and I strongly feel that working in my own life. It doesn't necessarily mean that everything will work out how I expect, but I have faith that in the end, I will be a better, happier person.

So today still not feeling too bad. Have had a couple of painful moments thinking about WW with the OM, and have a mix of hurt and anger. But I seem to be getting over them much quicker lately, and try not to dwell on it. Heading down to my sister's again to help finish up the fence work we started today. Probably in for another hot, grueling, sweaty day, but should get it finished up.

The kids had their fill of the pool yesterday so are heading to spend a couple of hours with mom and have lunch. Her and OM have started having a get together every Sunday with the neighbors where they have a bunch of food and hang out. It actually sounds like a lot of fun, and is something I wish we would have done more of as a family. I'm happy that the kids will enjoy it, but part of me gets jealous and angry whenever they spend time with WW and OM together. It's something I just have to learn to accept.

As I think more about my sitch and the long, sorted history of WW, I really wonder if there is any chance we could ever be a complete family again. I mean, the trouble started almost 5 years ago, with what I now know to be the very first OM, in spite of her repeated denials. Since then, it has been a series of affairs, at least 4 OM that I can confirm, and possibly more I don't know about. All lasted 18-24 months, except for the 2nd, which appeared to be a very short fling of 2-3 months. That is a very long time to be troubled mentally and emotionally. I think that WW is hoping that her actually moving out and in with current OM will be the difference this time. Who knows. Seems very unlikely to me, but then what does she do next? I just don't know if she will ever get better, at least not w/o some very serious professional help. I'm really starting to wonder if I should throw in the towel, file, and just move on.