I have thought a great deal about this. I think the grief you feel is the loss of your dreams and hopes.
I sense a naïveté within your posts. WW has been wayward for quite a long time, and this time she escalated and left. I question if she hadn't whether you would have continued with your dream.
Whatever you do this is for you and your children.
V
Freedom is just another word for nothing left to loose. V 64, WAW