I just read cherry's thread and it did give me some hope. So she stayed in the same house the whole time A was going on... The difference is that they had some kind of communication time to time, but we don't. We only text each other about logistics for the last 4 days...
This morning he texted me he is coming home soon, I don't know why cause it's Saturday and he knows I'll be with kids and no need for him to be with kids. But then he didn't get home until 2 hours later. Wherever he was, I'm sure he was not 2 hour drive distance. I'm trying to detach...I took the kids to some shopping before he got home. When we got back he was home, but didn't say a word to me, didn't even look me in the eye. He's been like this since the confession. I'm dressed sexy and pretty, acting upbeat with kids which is still more forced than real, but I'm trying. H is always the type who hates confrontation, but I know we both can't keep doing this forever. When he was leaving for work, I told the kids to say bye to papa, D(3) refused. Even though the kids see H everyday, I'm sure they are sensing something's up. But I don't want to use kids as leverage, so I'm not saying anything.
I'm on the fence about telling him to leave. One moment I can't wait any longer to tell him, but the next I'm not so sure. But he has no consequences right now ( financially, kids, convenience etc) so I know I need to tell him... Part of me trying to wait until next weekend for the wedding to see what happens, how he will be...as much as it will hurt, I will go with kids either way. But waiting means I am still having expectations and I need to change, I know. But it's still been 5 days and I have trouble sleeping and eating. I have huge lump in my chest all the time, it is so hard.
I do work and though But I don't get to go out much due to kids. But I'll try to be out with kids or do something nice to myself like beauty pampering.
I will try to read more on the other forums as well. Thanks again for your support.
