I'm seeing my W for the first time in four and a half months today, am equal parts excited about getting my dog back and truthfully, also nervous about what feelings seeing her will kick up.
Keep telling myself that I have no idea how things will go, maybe all of the detachment has done it's job and it won't be a big deal. Maybe I'll just see her as person and not THE person that my whole life depends upon. Getting texts from her about the logistics hasn't been the heart stopper that it was just a short time ago so fingers crossed that it's just a simple interaction between people that have spent a lot of time together.
That being said, I'm going to look great, smell great, and keep my PMA high. Wonka's Validation thread has been reread and I'm going do a lot of breathing throughout.
Intellectually I also understand that it's not healthy to shut that entire 10 year period that I've known her out of my mind and just pretend that it never happened. I've been doing that a bit and focusing entirely on the future, but want to integrate the two. To get to the point where I can think of her and our time together and not have it ruin my day. All in due time.
Can't wait to see my dog, what a great day it's going to be!
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Last edited by PigPen; 08/15/1503:07 PM.
M 39 W 36 T5 M3 BD - 1/15 Separated - Same Day Served 9/15 D finalized 6/17
