I am very sorry to hear that your stepmom passed away. Your trip back to the States may help you to close some doors on your past that have been nipping at your heels for a while. You have to remember that MLCers' empathy chips are broken and they are only thinking of themselves during the crisis. I wasn't surprised by his comments about a rough week. I'm sorry he's not there to support you during this time.

Travel safely and I hope that you can find some quality time to enjoy some of your vacation times in the States.

Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to.
The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.