The pain...don't we all want it to go away. I broke down and cried twice this week. 4 days is good, but your going need to do it for longer. I watched a video today that really helped me. Look at my thread and u will see about my PMA I will find the video and let u know how to watch it. It is about an hour. It is actually a sales pitch for a stopping divorce program. However, it provides a lot of great information. It turned my day around for sure.
Thanks Why. I'll check out the video. Also, as a quick update, WW stopped by unannounced today. Apparently, she needed to print something out and doesn't have access to a printer. I didn't mind, but the unexpected drop-by's get annoying. She hasn't done that for a while, but I may have to say something again. It only takes 10 seconds to fire off a TM and ask if it's OK to come over. I didn't pay her much attention, but can't say that I came across as cheery and upbeat either. Probably closer to disinterested and a little cold. I just couldn't drum up a PMA, given recent info about her. She only stayed around 5 min and was out the door. Said Hi to all the kids, but didn't even make eye contact with me, other than to say why she was there.
Then, she calls around 30 min later to confirm plans with kids tonight. Happens to mention she needs to adjust the schedule because she's starting a dart league Mon nights. Somehow I came across much more upbeat on the phone, so we talked around 5 minutes and I cut off the convo. And what drives me nuts about the whole thing is that after that phone call, my whole PMA shifted and now I actually feel pretty good. It's like a drug addict getting their hit after 4 days cold turkey. It's nice not feeling like poo again, but I know it won't last and by tomor I'll be back in the same boat. Ugh.
Me 47 W 42 T 24 yrs M 18 yrs W living with OM BD1: 3/7/2015 (A with OM#1) BD2: 4/11/2015 (A with OM#2, W moves out) WW filed for D, papers received 9/18/2015. Meeting to determine child custody 9/29/2015.
