Too angry right now

[ohgosh]

I mean that I took her for granted and worried I'll do it again.

I agree with what you said about failures.

I think what attracted her to me is that I focus a lot of energy on improving myself (or sometimes do), have a lot of calm and perspective at times and can be very stable and balanced when I put my effort and energy there, she also really liked that I thought she is an amazing person and reflected that back to her as she is quite insecure about herself (unrightly so).