Anyway - I love her and miss her, feel bad for all the tough times we went through but know within my heart that if we get a second chance I will do everything to make it work.. Which I know is where I am at due to the situation I am in. When I 'have her', I start to appreciate her less - how does one overcome this?
Do you mean that you took her for granted in the past & are worried you will do so again? Or do you mean that you miss her like crazy when you are apart, but when you spend time w/ her it wears off?
Either way don't worry about it. You just worry about GAL and detaching slowly & surely. That's all you can do. You'll deal w/ the reconciliation process if & when the time comes.
You also seem to like to take more responsibility for the failure of your M than is healthy or accurate. It really is a partnership, & both parties contributed. Yes, you may have done things which hurt her, and you should and have owned up to those and been working on yourself. But, she was also unskilled & has chosen this path rather than sticking it out & trying to really work on it. Since I've started w/ cliche's: It takes two to tango.
Instead of looking at the things you did wrong, start looking at how you were and what you did right that attracted her to you in the first place. There are clues there & it is useful to see these at this stage of the process. Also, what in the M did she appreciate about you? Not that you don't take in new info or have insights about problems, but you need to balance that (or right now, even overbalance) w/ seeing what you did right.
Me: 50 W:43 S6, S3 M: 12 yrs. T: 17 M is bad & Not happy Bomb Mar '14 S 5 Feb '15 D Bomb 13 Apr '15 (but "no hurry") DB Coach May '15 Wants proceed on D Aug '15 Starting 1-on-1 negotiations Sept '15
