Keeping dark is about no contact except where it's absoulutely necessary and then it's to the point and not posing any questions in other words disconnected. You are doing fine.
You are struggling as you've got your focus on what your H might do or think. Change what you think about to GAL, what you want to do, what you have wanted to do for a while but haven't had the time, what sounds interesting to you, what are your friends up to, what you've enjoyed doing before but lost interest or focus due to your M...the list is endless, go do some of it, any of it, just do it and you'll feel so much better.
- Nobody has ever learnt anything important from happiness and success; problems make us grow - Consult your plan, not your feelings - If you haven't set goals, how can you expect to achieve anything?