I will have my kids while she is out at the bar with her friends. I can keep busy for the day and evening, but will be home putting my kids to bed. Once they are asleep, I will be alone with my thoughts. I have my brother, mom, or best friend to call. I will try to lean on them tomorrow when the demons in my head come out at night. I am not prepared to give up yet. Maybe the writing is on the wall, but I am not ready to read it.
