Yeah .. past pains and hurts take time. I know this all to well, I am still wrestling this ... its not easy.
Thing is, the past .... we can only learn from it, living there will not allow us to grow as a person. Do not get stuck on the shoulda-woulda-coulda- of 2014, its done, now if you learn from it, apply that knowledge to NOW, how beautiful would that be vs sulking in how you might have done this or that and not been 'here' .... no lesson learned EVER with that process right? PT you have to live and make mistakes to LEARN. No one figures out how to play sitting on the bench ... you have to be out there on the field/court to really 'get it' right?
I recall thinking like you are ... and I read a quote ... did not memorize it but it said something to the effect"Without great suffering there is no growth" At the time I though .. "ahhh how nice another quote about my pain". But I am here to tell you... no WAY I would have made the changes in my life I have in the past 18 months without going through all this, being brought to my knees and stripped from all I held dear to my heart.
