Everything you've said is pretty much right on. I've continued reading threads, books and thinking back on some of the things I did to get us here. You and the others are right, it wasn't just me. Sure it may have been a bit more me than her but she has issues too. Everyone does. I can't blame myself for everything, I can only look at how I reacted and see what was wrong in that.
She's begun starting conversations the in the last couple days. I don't message her first anymore. She seems much less angry and even though she's still not back to being the sweet, loving woman I married, it is a step in the right direction. At this point, from this distance, i'll take what i can get.
The biggest thing in my head atm is weather she will respect this marriage enough to not cheat or move on while I'm gone. I know its out of my hands and there's no use worrying about it but it still drives me crazy. Just got keep myself busy and continue on growing as a man.
