Well everyone, I got some new information tonight that totally changes my goals. I no longer wish to stay married. Ran into some old friends tonight who have known WW and myself for a long time. Turns out that in addition to the 2 affairs I already knew about, there were 2 more years ago. And a lot of people knew about it, just not me apparently. Guess she had quite the reputation at a couple of local bars. It made me sick to my stomach hearing about it. But they say she confessed everything to them. Funny how nobody ever wants to tell you the truth until it's way too late.
So no way could I ever look at her the same again, or trust her. She has some serious mental issues, and needs therapy. I will be going for full custody of all my children, as I honestly do not trust the judgement of my WW. I plan to keep DBing, in the spirit of improving myself and my children's lives. I really hope that my W gets some some therapy and straightens out her life, just for her kids sake. But I won't be standing by her as her H. There is way too much damage that has went on for way too long to ever rebuild. The sheer amount of dishonesty is overwhelming.
So good luck to all still in the fight. I will continue reading and posting updates, but with the intention of getting myself through the process. I hope that maybe WW and I can some day be friends, IF she ever gets the help she needs. I am so sad, yet in a way relieved. I pray for myself, my children, and even my WW that we all find peace and happiness.
Me 47 W 42 T 24 yrs M 18 yrs W living with OM BD1: 3/7/2015 (A with OM#1) BD2: 4/11/2015 (A with OM#2, W moves out) WW filed for D, papers received 9/18/2015. Meeting to determine child custody 9/29/2015.