Need advice for a WW who left Part 2

[dwh15]

Well, I think that my WW is getting ready to file for D. I'm still paying for her cell and check the logs, looking for stuff just like this. She had a 15 minute call to an attorney this afternoon. I feel like I just got punched in the gut. I'm crying one minute and angry the next. If she goes ahead with filing, I'm not sure that I will want to R.

I know that for her, it's all about getting financial support, and she knows she's not getting any until a court order is issued. What gets me is that she knows I'm unemployed with limited funds, and taking care of the kids 95% of the time. But she's so self centered, all she can think about is her own problems. She's living with a guy who she was ready to leave just a couple of weeks ago, and he actually told her ILYBNILWY. For THAT, she's willing to give up 24 years with someone who would die for her. I feel like dying right now.