I talked to my DB coach this morning which always helps me put the focus back on me. It's definitely time to go dark, which I will be able to do pretty well I think. Now we can communicate about divorce stuff via lawyers. H will want be in the house soon to get the rest of his stuff. We talked about a strategy for that.

He also suggested to look for an opportunity to do a 180. H and I used to be playful together. He said if there is an opportunity look for an opportunity to tell a joke. Not sure how to do that while going dark?

I have accepted the fact that this will end in divorce barring a miracle. A little part of my heart still wants that miracle

Me - 53
H - 48
Together 13 yrs
No children together
BD - May '15
EA confirmed June '15
Filed for separation/living mostly separate 7/15
H counter files for divorce 8/15


Me53
H48
M 13
No children together
BDMay '15
PA June '15
H moves out,files 8/15 wants "quick divorce" but does nothing
Me sending proposal 12/15, court dates upcoming