So birthday party is coming up Saturday, so do not want to go to this. It is all a show for everyone. I feel like a fraud and complicit in this fraud. But it is for my S10 right? Its his big day not mine. I fully understand this and will comply to the best of my ability.
I have withdrawn from any communication as I just can't deal right now with any more BS or demands. I am tring to do with this compassion and love. I am trying to focus on core feelings or worth and confidence and resillence and remove myself from any drama or judgement.
Everything feels so complicated right now. Just not feeling anything anymore.
