Letting go, really hurts (Smothy 9)

[Pyrite]

vipashana Smoth. extended periods of meditation and NO talking, NO contact, with anyone - retreat. things are just getting way too touchy/feely all over the place. it has been quite a while since you have commented on anything that is not EXTERNAL, and externals are/should be irrelevant to your own PMA.

centre and re-centre on you. focus on your breath. then on the wind. then on the birds. then back to the centre. to you. fid your centre. recognise these externals. and see them for what they are. they will come and go.and they do, with every post you make there is a new reason for you to ask how should I feel, what should I do. you will always be you. your perception of these externals can take any form you let them. dont let them deter you. You are strong. You have your own agenda. Stick to where you want to go and use these externals to reaffirm that. You ask these questions, but you already know the answer. trust yourself.

cryptic enough? (sorry, late, tired, d4 is quite the motional handful right now, i'm just an idiot anyway, blah, blah, blah)