The worst thing is that she'll find someone else, yes thats my biggest fear but I realise its out of my hands.

Anyway today we met again and i was faced head-on with the fact we really do need some space away from eachother to work on ourselves.

Too much baggage between us right now, I can only stand her negativity directed at me for so long before I get upset as well - It's impossible to withstand it for too long.

In the end we hugged for a long time and it was nice, but that's it I really need to move on for a bit.. so focused on getting this to resolve ASAP through survival mode that I'm not giving it the time it needs.

Another big fear of mine is the fear of failure - of having to admit to everyone in my family and hers that we failed. Her family loves me so much and mine loves her so much it is just too painful for me to think about it.

Also the more this goes on the more I remember why I ended up mistreating her during these years - except the fact that I was unhappy with myself and not doing the work I need to do (this I can work on) there were things severely troubling me in the relationship and perhaps I can use these as a method of detaching and actually figuring out that perhaps this isn't the best relationship I can get, perhaps it is best that we split up while we're young and go on to something more suitable.

Too many thoughts, but at this present time I'm feeling more serene.


Last edited by ohgosh; 08/13/15 02:23 PM.
Me: 29, wife: 29
Been together 6 years.
Married June 13 (2years)
Separation: 22/6/15
W stopped wearing wedding ring 30/6/15