Thanks for the advice Sandi. I know you are right but it is hard. We have had several talks since my last post. She keeps saying that I do not know what she is doing regarding the EA so I believe that my thoughts that he likes to talk but when she was thinking of making it real it was cramping his style. She asked me yesterday about getting a realtor to sell the house. I told her that I did not want to sell the house but if that is what she wants she can do all the work. I will sign the paperwork but will not go out and get a realtor. She got into a huge fight with my 26d on the phone last night. Then see comes into the house and tries to start a fight with me because I washed clothes and i included her clothes with the families. She tells me she can do it. I told her I know but I was just trying to take away some of the tension in the house with is what she said her goal was.... to have no tension. But she causes all the tension. I try to be civil but nothing suits her. She tells me its over but then wants to sit down and talk to me about an arguement we got into the night before. If she doesn't care why does the arguement matter. Her EA is 500 miles away. We do sleep in the same bed but have not had sex since March. She has gradually pulled away from me. When I first found out she would still kiss and give me somewhat of a hug. Now I can not even touch her. I need to get the book but I am just getting back to work and have not been able to get it. I am on the road some and I don't want it to come while im gone and she open the package. I really don't know if she thinks about what I'm doing or losing me. I wish she did. I know I went out with a male friend to a hockey game a few months ago and I did not tell her who or where I was going and she did get jealous.
