I know. Another weird evening. Had a pleasing last evening meal together. DS is not home tomorrow. H was very complimentary. Went into the hot tub and said that I looked beautiful, had a lovely body etc. quite a poignant evening as I said to H this will be the last item we do this together. held each other and said our goodbyes.

Prob. get a lot of flack for this. I felt it was what I needed to do. We had a cuddle and kiss before H went to bed. Spoke about how he feels for OW2. H said it is not what he wants right now and does not want her to leave her partner. Said he thinks I am beautiful etc. H was staring at me all through out the time we were I the hot tub. Acted all breezy antd light.

We held each other for a while and it felt right but I pulled away. Very tempted to go to him tonight but know I mustn't. With the added complications of friend wanting to take me to airport too to say goodbye,

Both 47 M 20 T25 S 18
EA July 11- Jan 12. ILYBNILWY Oct EA April 13 -July 13
Move to work abroad Sept 14
re establish contact with OW while away
D bomb 22/12/14 D filed papers served 17/03/15