Is there a bottom?

[bravo61]

update:

nothing really has happened with my sitch. i've decided to have as little contact with her. at pickups, i have the kids come out by themselves and go in by themselve. at soccer games, i sit on the other side of the field. i initiate NO texts or emails and only respond to the important ones. when i do, i usually let her know that i'm praying for her. i had the kids all last week which was awesome. i don't call them when she has them, i let them decide if they are going to call. well they missed me so much, they called sometimes twice a day while she has had them on vacation this week. it's sad that every time i drop them off, they beg me not to give up on mama. i just smile and tell them that i love them.

i realized she blocked me on FB. strikes me as passive aggressive as i unfriended her about 4 months ago. another funny thing, i asked her to have the kids every sun and mon nites as my 2 days a week. of course she went on about how she had most sundays off this month and she has invested herself in taking them to church(except for the past year). i just let her know that i acknowledged that fact in the past and that in the last year the kids and i have loved going to church together.

well, she texted me the days she wants me to take them and she decided to give up most sundays. i pray that she will find her way back to God as she is so lost right now. it's like she has changed her core values so as not to have any guilt for the EVIL plan she carried out. and she expects the kids and i just to go along for the ride and not have our own feelings about it.

really struggling with the hate right now. i can accept my part in all this. and indeed i have owned it. it galls me that she will not/refuses to accept her part and still acts like a victim and like she is a perfect person. makes me want to throw up, but that is between her and God. the kids have seen through her BS.

prayers would be appreciated.