Hi Zelda, thank you! I guess I am somewhat doing the right thing, because I am not suppose to be even thinking much about this... so much for Detachment!!. Lol.
Went home at lunch time and the boys said that XH texted them asking to hang out with them after he talks with mom.
At that same moment I decided to tell the kids that I am going out for a dinner. They asked with whom and I said with a friend that is trying to help me to get a job. Not true, but half truth.
This way I will resolve the two or three things I need to resolve with him today and then leave. He can stay in a house with the boys or not, I really do not care.
I guess this will solve some of the R and M talks, and I won't be so worked out by all his words. Cira, remember: "Believe nothing what they say and only 50% what they do".
I am finding it much easier to be far away from all of this and from XH, I guess at some point I will just get used to this.
I always wanted my M, my family. Life is a hell for all of us for quite awhile. But I guess I just need to see the truth that XH is just being the idiot he is lately and I am being the doormat that I have been lately.
I just need to let go, let go, let go. I think I need a boyfriend to forget about XH. I am feeling so bad today and I still need to stand up and continue.
I am without balance, I am overwhelmed... I need to try to concentrate in what is most important for me... myself.
