How can I best get past this anger and bitterness in our interactions. It seems that we actively hate each other at this point.
When we try to have any face to face discussion, it is a disaster and always leaves me feeling bad. She acuses me of being hostile and angry. She continues her button pressing. It's like she accuses me of being angry and hopes that I will react. It's like double button pushing.
For the life of me, I just don't see the point.
Can we all agree that this is a toxic relationship at this point?
Ok ... breathe
It feels toxic because you are not detached. You have to hit a point of Indifference here. I remember really hating who W had turned into... this cold manipulative person who was all about #1 and could care less who she trampled on to get there.
It is what you make it, she is off on her own journey ... its not meant for you to follow her through it, let her do this and just view her as a 'zombie' ... do not let her bite or claw you .. keep your distance and let her wander about.
Use that anger you have to fuel you to this new level of detachment, you do not want anything to do with her right now anyways right?
