Not Confused Anymore 2!!!

[Joe46]

I got the kids home!! We had a good time going through Yellowstone. I would have loved to spend more time when it is less crowded.

The kids did better than I expected when we left. D12 gave her mom a hug and loaded up in the truck. S7 was a little more emotional. STBXW acted as if she was ready for them to go home.

S7 had lots of questions for me. He is so confused. He doesn't understand why his mom can't live with us for a month and than live in CA for a month. He doesn't understand OM and his daughter living with his mom. He doesn't understand why his mom doesn't want to live with us anymore. I basically told him that mom was not happy living with me anymore. I told him that she loves him and his sister very much. I told him that I love him with all my heart and I will always be here for him. I am going to take him to see the therapist that is seeing D12. She is good with kids. She told me that it might be easier to explain some of these things together. She will have a different way of explaining it and also is a witness that I am not bashing their mother.

I was correct, D12 stayed in her room the whole time. Instead of bunkbeds, there was a air mattress for her, mattress for OM daughter and S7 had to sleep on the floor. All in the same room. No trip to Disneyland, no trip to Sea World, no trip to the beach, no horses were bought for them, no game system and they spent one day with their grandparents. They did not even get to see them before they left. S7 was not given his inhaler every night like he was supposed to. D12 did not get her sinus rinse at night and was given 5mg of melatonin instead of the doctor recommended dose of 1/2mg or 1mg. If you can't tell, I am venting!!

I am doing ok. I am hurting for my children. I did talk to D12 some last night also. She told me the reason she changed her mind about coming home early was because she just started to accept it. She accepted the fact that this is going to be how it is now. I don't know if that was her talking or STBXW telling her that. I am worried for her. I see her trying to ignore the hurt and anger. I am taking everyone's advice and just being the best Dad I can be for my kids. I will be here for them. I am not bringing AP into our family. I will not lie to them and I will love and support them the very best I can.