Need advice for a WW who left Part 2

[dwh15]

Dwh,

I have felt that exact same way. If it was not court ordered that my WW and me don't communicate I would have sent her texts. I just know if I could not have stopped myself. Your doing good. Self discipline is very diffiucult during this time. Perhaps you should imagine a judge putting you in contempt of court if you text her. That may make it a little easier to resist.

You got court ordered not to communicate? Wow! I guess in some ways I feel lucky that although my WW has definitely went off the deep end of mental stability, so far she hasn't really shown any desire to be vindictive or hurtful. I can't imagine how much worse that would make me feel. It's bad enough just knowing that she doesn't seem to care.

I feel I've been doing well on restraining myself, but I do reply to TMs that she sends. I always keep it short and to the point, usually about kids. She contacted me 2 days ago just to confirm plans for kids that night, and I expect it will probably be the same today. Sad enough, it will probably make me feel a little better even getting those 1 or 2 messages. I really wish I had a way to know how she was feeling, but it's difficult to discern when you don't spend any time together at all. The kids usually tell me that she seems happy, or maybe a little stressed, but I chalk that up to worries about money. It's so difficult to keep going, but I am hoping that it does get easier as time passes. I feel that it has gotten a little easier in past couple weeks, but definitely still a huge challenge.