Need advice for a WW who left Part 2

[dwh15]

Journaling:
Slept pretty well, but had a strange dream about WW. We were all at my mother's for some get-together and she was there as well, off doing her own thing. Noticed her hanging around with some seedy group of guys I had never seen before, and lost track of her. Then I panicked and ran around asking everyone where she went. Nobody knew a thing. After a few minutes of frantically searching all over the place, I woke up. And then just felt depressed. I think the lack of communication is really hitting me hard. I have never went this long before w/o talking to my W on a daily basis. I so badly want to just send a text and ask how she's doing, but I know I don't dare. Think I'll go hug my boys to make me feel better. Man, this [censored].