Zelda - Baby One More Time

[Vanilla]

Had a similar issue with the electric people, wouldn't talk to me so I switched providers and thought if there is anything owing he can pay it. But I won't want the hassle I will pay the bill then deduct 50% from the small balance I owe him or if he ends up owing me the other way around I will write it off.

Z this is just one more small pain, each one you tackle and grieve about is one less garbage piece you carry. It is grief, the next step after anger is sadness, one more step to acceptance.

Let it flow Z, it is cleansing. Go get a new widget and ceremonial tip the other one and do horrible things, or return it to the company or both.

Dawn described on my thread how she had taken all of the anniversary, Valentine and other cards she had kept and then discarded and cleansed through clearing. This cleansing tactic works for me too. I shredded and burned the ILY cards and I have the ashes of those and I am spreading these in the important places for me. Some ashes are being put on his golf course (where we married), the flat in Brighton in the garden and some will go to Madiera.

I googled a ceremonial cleansing and converted this to this ritual.

I have yet to decide what to do with my wedding photos. But I shall remove them to an old drive then I will see in due course, at some stage that is another pain to face.

I will bear it and move forward in my life with the baggage gone.

WH bought me a stereo for Xmas, so I put it in his stuff. He paid for it from our joint account. Hmmmmmm I discovered that recently. So I have no stereo in Brighton, I am going to buy another one from eBay, a fantastic second hand one. The blu ray player he bought I gave him back. I will have a new one.

There are two old TVs here from WH old home I will replace them. He can have these back, I will find a way of doing it. Gone, gone, gone and there was little of real substance left. When H1 died, I made a treasure box of his things, I brought these out and have put the cards he gave me in my personal treasure box instead of WHs. I have been loved, they set next to my aged Ps wonderful recent letters. Truly great love. They are signs of my love and my great blessings in my life.

Z I would like you to beautifully hand write your love letter to Z, which was an amazing and spiritual letter at the end of the last thread and start your recovery treasure box. Keepsakes of your greatest love, for yourself. Find a beautiful silk handcherchief and collect your tears, they are tears of great cleansing and to be treasured.

Peace

V