Thanks for the replies V and Sandi. I recently re-joined the local chapter of a national organization. It's charity based, and has a clubhouse right down the street, which basically acts as a bar with cheap drinks, but you have to be a member to go in. My WW and I were both member a couple of years ago, but dropped our membership after she had a falling out with some of the trustees. I recently joined again, since one of the trustees is a friend of mine, and was down there tonight. There are a lot of people, typically an older crowd, and it was nice just hanging out and having a couple of drinks. They all remember WW and for the most part don't have a great opinion of her. She volunteered her time bartending, and I am actually looking to do the same starting soon. Figure it will be a good way to meet all the members. It is a nice way to spend time and a fun group of people. But I find myself still sitting there thinking of WW on a regular basis.

It's even hard to hear other people speak of her in a negative way. Everyone expects that I hate her at this point, and I probably should, but for some reason don't. I still love her with a passion, and wish she would come to her senses. I know you can't just flip a switch on a relationship of 24 years, especially when you share 4 beautiful kids together. I am really hoping and praying that at some point she realizes what she has done and wants to try to rebuild. I fear that her life is going to be full of sorrow and regret otherwise. But I am trying to focus on what's best for me now, and my kids. God, this is hard. Praying for peace.


Me 47 W 42
T 24 yrs M 18 yrs
W living with OM
BD1: 3/7/2015 (A with OM#1)
BD2: 4/11/2015 (A with OM#2, W moves out)
WW filed for D, papers received 9/18/2015.
Meeting to determine child custody 9/29/2015.