Zelda, sorry if that felt like a gut punch. I wish I could give you a real hug...but this will have to do (((Zelda)))
I hope that you can embrace this challenge to take a deep breath and go get a new device and make it your own, research and find the thing that suits YOU best.
This will be the next step to your independence from the reminders of what was instead of what can and will be the bright future that is YOU!!!
