DBing still......WW still (Part 2)

[HurtJef]

Ok...its been over a week since I posted anything. Last time I was here I found out about my wife hiding alot of her money from me to feed her gambling addiction during our marriage....as well as taking money from our kids xmas fund a few years ago to go to the casino. She lost it all and had to borrow it to put it back.

I am really flabbergasted by this. As i have said before...My Ww is a bartender and can lie about the majority of the money that she brings in. I was heartbroken all over again.

This past friday, I backslid hard and let her have it for the lies she has told me for all of these years. I was very mean and called her narsisistic and selfish. I explained how I felt instead of just STFU.

Then Saturday night, a crying, wasted WW called me and told me She loved me so much and could never love another man. She said that I am the same ahole I always was and that she wont take my verbal abuse anymore, even over text. She told me thats why she is with OM b/c he puts her in a pedestal and I am mean to her. She told me she loves me more than I know and that she didnt want me to forget that. I let her go.

I dont know what to do. I did backslide and berate her (by text) which is something she says is the main reason she cant be with me any longer. I am still DBing and showing tough love as far as doing things with her and for her.

I guess I feel that I am failing. I can't completly back away b/c of the kids and the constant transport schedule. Im lost.