Too angry right now

[asitis]

No you can't control her actions, but you can either push her toward seeking OM or not. So, just expect that there will be unpleasant surprises like this in your future, but work to let things settle and not provoke her into such situations.

Sometimes our minds are our own worst enemies, as we spend so much time suffering over what might come about, and we're very good at thinking up such stuff.

Focus on doing things that require concentration so that you can disconnect this story telling aspect of the mind.

Hang in there. And just ignore her keeping tabs on you. Just let her, and pretend she isn't. Show her an ohgosh who is handling things and GAL without her.