it seems that my life is over. like and elephant sitting on my chest. I cant breathe. The day is getting worse and worse. I cant seem to get myself under control.

She went out with a friend from college last night and gay woman.

I cant help but thinking something happened. I haven't asked her about her night out and I don't plan to. even if something did happen she wouldn't tell me and tbh I don think I would want to know.

M:39
W:40
S:10
S:7
D:12
BD:3/5/15
Separate BR:3/5/15
W moved out with kids 1/3/16