An old friend from college tracked me down the other night and has been emailing me. 5 emails in 24 hours. His first email was friendly, "hi how are you" a general update and reaching out type email. Things quickly progressed to "I really miss you" and "we will always have this connection". We were good friends. It is nice to hear from an old friend, but that is all it is to me.
I would normally tell H but we are only speaking about 2 sentences a day to each other so I don't want to waste it on this. I thought it would be flattering to have someone reach out to me like this, but honestly, it isn't, it just feels like a secret and like someone I am going to have to let down. Plus what do I tell H, I don't want to make it seem like "you had an EA so now I have one too" or like I am telling him "someone else wants me".
I am just going to make it go away. It was nice catching up, but we are caught up now.
Ironically, since BD I have had this little fantasy (honestly never more than a passing thought) of someone taking an interest in me, but now that it has happened it doesn't feel good at all! It just feels uncomfortable. Doesn't make me any more sympathetic to the whole EA thing, actually makes me less sympathetic, because it is pretty clear to me when someone crosses a boundary and sends up an immediate red flag to me, not a "wow, this is flattering, give me more " more of a "wow, this is inappropriate, what is wrong with this person?"
